| my last lj entry |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|03:14 pm] |
i'm not very well.
the depression's got worse.
i'm going to the doctor's now.
i'm not going to be out and about for a while.
hopefull see you all soon xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|02:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  shit | ] |
| [ | music |
| | rites of spring - deeper than inside | ] |
well 2006 is already a big bag of bollocks xx
[EDIT]
i'm a little happier now i've seen this! xx |
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| new year's resolutions... |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|01:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | virgil shaw - twisted layer | ] |
GIVE UP ALCHOHOL AND WEED:
i'm serious about this one and i'm going to do my very best to stick to it. i permanently feel like shit at the moment and i think it's cause of the pure amount of crap i put into my body. i WAS gonna give up fags but realised i'd never stick to it and i'll save just as much money giving up booze/weed.
SORT MY FINANCES OUT:
by 31st december 2006 i'm gonna have no debt, no money worries and it's all gonna be great.
STOP BEING SO BASTARD MISERABLE:
i'm gonna get off these anti-depressants, i'm gonna stop being paranoid/anxious/depressed and by next new year's eve i'm going to be proper happy and smiley.
( my 2005 )
love xxxx |
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| stoled from kate |
[Dec. 29th, 2005|02:23 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | deftones - headup | ] |
IN THE YEAR 2005 I...
( ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
( ) made-out in/on a car
(x) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
( ) fell in love with a fool
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart accidently or otherwise
(x) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex on the cheek
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
(x) lost your true love
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under miseltoe
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
(x) lost your job
(x) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
(x) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
( ) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
( ) cut class
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
( ) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(X) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embaressed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) visted a foreign state
(x) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
( ) went on a diet
(x) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alchohol
( ) drank alchohol underage
(x) did drug(s)
(x) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( )saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
( )saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
( )Enjoyed this year over all
xx |
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| tomorrow |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|08:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fight paris - southern comfort | ] |
if you don't come yr not my friend anymore xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|10:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | yourcodenameis:milo - audition | ] |
the guy at the desk next to me in my office just cleared his throat in the most unnecessarily over-the-top way ever.
if i could spell it i'd recreate it for all of you. fuck it, i'll have a go anyway...
"AAARRGHHHHHHCCCCKCKKKKAKUAUUURURRRRRRGGGHHHHHHAAAACHACHACHACHACHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUuuuuuuuurrrrggghhh!"
yeh, something like that.
in other news, a week tomorrow is this little doozy:
COME PLEASE!! xx |
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| worse than jwp? |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|07:23 am] |
"i love it when my songs are played at weddings. it makes me feel closer to my fans."
-james blunt
that dick can suck all of my balls.
why can't any of these braindeads who keep buying his stuff spot that not only is he bland, boring, dull, unemotive drivel, but he CAN'T EVEN SING!!?
gggnnnyyyaaarrrgggghhhh!! xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 2nd, 2005|10:59 am] |
| [ | music |
| | every time i die - kill the music | ] |
Bipolar
You are bipolar, also known as "Manically
Depressed"! But don't fret my little
unhappy dumpling, because you usually work
things out on your own. You just need someone
to talk to most of the time. As for friends,
well, you're a little short, but you still have
a few close ones that you hold dear. You're
always wishing for something more, and have
MAJOR, MAJOR moodswings. Like, PMS times 10
moodswings. In most cases, you usually resign
to pessimism, and people say you're
"Depressing to be around". This isn't
your fault though, this is acctually caused by
a chemical imbalance, and there are many
treatments/medications out there that are
proven to help with it. Though, *this is my
opinion, sorry* in most cases, I think that all
you need is real love, or just someone to talk
to, that you know is listening. As I said, you
can usually work things out on your own; You're
almost a self healer.
What's Your Disorder?
brought to you by Quizilla
things like this aren't as fun when they're actually horribly accurate.
:(
xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|01:51 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | super furry animals - the man don't give a fuck | ] |
hanzo steel is going well. had a fucking awesome practise the other day and our first gig's been booked and everything's sooper.
start my new job on monday and it's gonna be ace.
found a new housemate who i'm gonna start looking at places in nottingham with and that's gonna be quite exciting.
my friends have all been dead nice and proper good recently and spent loads of time with me.
SO WHY AM I STILL FUCKING MISERABLE?!
xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|11:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  rich | ] |
| [ | music |
| | qotsa - regular john | ] |
right.
so i just got offered a job in nottingham.
hmmm...
they wanna pay me £26k a year.
so erm... BYE! xx |
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| ick |
[Oct. 31st, 2005|03:23 pm] |
i just saw westlife perform their sensational cover of "raise me up" on tv...
VOMIT
xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 21st, 2005|02:16 am] |
| [ | music |
| | circle takes the square - crowquill | ] |
had a horrible night last night. horrible. was really down for absolutely no reason.
woke up today and felt a lot better. decided to make some positive steps over the next few weeks and do some shit i've been planning to do for ages.
i never said thankyou to everyone who came out for my birthday. pretty much all my favourite people were there (save for one or two who had good excuses), so cheers! means a lot.
the internet's beginning to cunt me right off. i used to be quite fond of clever little sites like myspace. now i'm tired of the same generic 17 yr old scenester twats adding me to bump up their friends quota, so i might just delete my old account soon, and just carry the friends over that i actually know in real life or at least the ones that have made the effor to speak to me and seem nice.
also definitely gonna have a mass clearout of some of the cunts on my msn contacts.
dunno why i have to do that or even share it with you dear readers... it just bothers me. a lot.
i don't know why i'm permanently in a bad mood right now, i'm just getting very easily upset/annoyed by everything.
love xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 17th, 2005|04:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  upset | ] |
| [ | music |
| | blood brothers - new york slave | ] |
why does every one i start to give a shit about always turn into an absolute cunt?
fuck xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 14th, 2005|03:54 pm] |
happy birthday to me.
i've opened all my presents save an ominous looking and sizeable cardboard box delivered by the loves at fedex this morning. johns says i'm not allowed to open it til gaz gets home.
WHAT COULD IT BE!?
so tonight, i'm going to my mum's for a meal then going out, i SHOULD be out between 8 and 9 starting the night in THE BLESS. so i'll see you kidz in there.
love xx |
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| good news / bad news |
[Oct. 11th, 2005|06:33 am] |
| [ | music |
| | charlotte church - call my name | ] |
good news:
i'm well happy at the moment. beginning to get my shit together and get on with the rest of my life. i'm 20 in a few days. technically i'm entitled to at least another 62 years in this place and i need to crack on with making the most of this.
fuck all this anger and feeling sorry for myself. for the foreseeable future i'm gonna do what the fuck i want, when the fuck i want.
also, the new charlotte church single is ACE.
bad news:
chris came round after work today and broke the news that fella was hit by a car and killed yesterday. martin isn't taking it too great.
i only met her once, but that cat was so cute and awesome and it's just a fucking shame.
R.I.P FELLA 2005
xx |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|06:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | grandaddy - broken household appliance national forest | ] |
i love making very tongue-in-cheek comments on a certain derby music forum and watching everyone take them REALLY REALLY seriously.
does anyone actually know me in real life? xx |
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